Bad Directions

I've lived in Dallas for about 13 years now. I don't get lost anymore. I don't get lost because I know where I'm going, and I know how to get there. If I had examine my life and pinpoint one thing that takes me away from God, and what he has for me, it's that sometimes I forget where I'm going. God hasn't shown me a vision where I see the next ten years like a sitcom or something, but what he has done is told me what my life is supposed to be like, or the direction it should go. I should be making a difference in people's lives. and not like the salvation army makes a difference. I'm supposed to be pointing people towards the gospel. How many people have been baptized because of how God used me in their lives? How many people have come to know Christ? And i've worked in churches since I was 18. The focus of my life isn't on what God wants me to do, it's on what I want to do.

I was honest..and I got burned

I have to admit, I get discouraged when things don't go the way I want them. I am a planner, so when something doesn't go the way I plan it, I get pissed. I want things to go the way I think is best. This can be a problem because God knows what's best, and I'm wrong alot. So, I found an apartment because my lease is up in May (and a major life change will be taking place very soon, I'm not giving it away) and I will need a bigger place that is well liked by parties other than myself. And I found the perfect place. Here's the thing about Dallas; if you want a place in the city that doesn't look like they film the shield directly on the proprety, you should be prepared to pay about 9 dollars a square foot. I lucked out, and found a place in the industrial district, a loft, 1300 sq ft built in the 1920's, with hardwood floors, big windows, and less than 2 dollars a sq foot. How great is that? I will have a full time job from the day the lease starts on. The problem was/is, I don't now, and have no paperwork that documents my immenent raise. So I didn't get it. This was the first vacancy this place had in 2 years. If I would have lied on my application about my salary, I would've been home free. But I didn't. And I'm glad I didn't. The minor tests of character we face aren't minor at all. If you can't handle the details right, then you've got no shot at handling the things that really matter correctly. So, I don't have my dream place, but I do have my integrity. Thank God for his Grace imparted to me through the atoning work of Christ, without it, I am without integrity.